Sleepless in SoCal

I've come to realize that it's probably more of a "once in a lifetime" thing...

There's nothing more romantic than someone saying...

i want you, I need you, I love you...

and nothing will keep me from you.

on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you

things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it.

"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and perhaps listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself that you tasted as many as you could." -Louise Erdrich

via the ever lovely blog The C-Word

Yea, I'm trying to make strides. Malibu is a bit of a lonely place. I can't even begin to describe the various conversations I've had with people about the exorbitant amount of "alone time" they have. It's a place where you can pretty get what you want when you want it... but there are so many solitary souls roaming around here.

I've been taking it all in.

Writing, running, hiking & singing. (yes, I've suddenly taken up music again.)

I've been taking in the beauty of Malibu and its surrounding areas every single day. If I have so much as a few free hours, I'm throwing on my sneakers and getting outside. It's amazing and so freeing.

Stealing lemons and clementines from Hannah's yard post-hikeTopanga CanyonTrancas NurseryMalibu Dune Cleanup <3

It's funny how things come full circle.

Maybe I can divulge a little more in the future but

I have some serious decisions to make...and SOON.

Oh... boy....

Even after all this time

The Sun has never told the Earth

“You owe me.”

Look what happens with a love like that,

it lights the whole sky.

_Hafiz_

down in flames

"Every occasion I'm ready for the funeral

At every occasion one brilliant day funeral."

It's been a rough week....hell, month.

But despite the glaring negatives and stress I've endured, I've experienced the most amazing beauty in the past few weeks. I'm talking awe-inspiring, jaw-dropping, can't-believe-it-with-your-own-eyes beauty. While I know that pictures could never do these things justice, here is my dismal attempt at giving you a little piece of my heaven:

bright lights in nyc
the most gorgeous hike off Sunset
a hike and clean-up of the Malibu dunes

to come: my resolution list, better late than never.

down in flames

It's been a rough week....hell, month.